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True Confession #3: Commitment Issues

Once I’ve set my mind to something, I am usually able to commit to whatever it may be until it’s finished.

Recently, I’ve experienced a roadblock in my efforts to commit to something pretty minor: wall art or furniture for the empty walls in my apartment.

My older sister helped me out a bunch in figuring out how to best place my existing furniture and other assorted belongings when I moved in to my apartment, and even did some stealth decorating when I wasn’t home.

Despite the fact that I like lots of things that could work in the space, I can’t seem to commit to spending the money on something I just like. I feel like there should be some kind of emotional response that tells me, “this is it, this is what you’ve been searching for.” So far, I haven’t found anything that fits the bill, or speaks to me, even though my sister sends me at least two emails a week with suggestions of things she’s found that I like and would work.

My lack of commitment to this one empty space has started to become a running joke with us, and every time we speak on the phone or message via email, the conversation always leads to this topic.

Yes, it does bug me a little that I haven’t finished my decorating project, especially since I’ve spent countless hours scouring the internet and various stores trying to find something I love, but I’ve just run out of steam.

Maybe I’m looking in the wrong places, or haven’t searched hard enough, but for now, my walls are going to remain like an empty canvas until I can get over this fear of commitment.

At this point, I’m open to suggestions, but since having this last little area decorated isn’t really the highest priority for me,  I’m in no hurry to make a snap decision that I might regret later. I’m living by the idea that when the timing is right, I’ll just know… which I think is a pretty good philosophy that can be applied to lots of other situations besides my decorating fear of commitment.

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